Daddy's Little Girl

I am a daddy’s girl.  I always have been.  I remember as a young girl thinking I wanted to marry someone just like my father.  He is the best man I have ever known. 

Well, about a month ago I went on a date.  He is a fireman for Plano.  Now when he walked in and I saw him I actually started laughing.  This guy was handsome . . I mean drop dead, should be on one of those fireman calendars, goregous.  We had a nice time and some great conversation and seemed to really hit it off.  But for some reason I was not “attracted” to him.  I kept wondering what was wrong with me?  We continued to talk for a week or so but I just did not want to go back out with him.  

Then one night I was going through some boxes in my closet and came across some pictures from when I was a little girl. There was one of me and my daddy.   It suddenly hit me . . . Mr. Fireman looked exactly like my father when he was in his 30’s.  They had the same build, hair, eyes and smile.  It was scary how much they looked alike.  That is when I realized why I was drawn to him, but wasn’t attracted to him .

So I think a lot of little girls want to marry someone who is like their father . . . but doesn’t look like them.  Or at least this daddy’s girl doesn’t. 

Dream On

I am so excited that a friend of mine from Austin is getting married this weekend.  I am sad, that I will not be able to attend.  I truly love them and I wish them all the happiness in the world – Lord knows they deserve it. 

And then I have another friend who is getting married but I worry about them even before they tie the knot.   When asking how the significant other is doing and the phrase “damn hypocrite” is the description I get I have to wonder how long that one will even last. 

I have come to the realization that I will likely not ever marry again.  I wouldn’t mind a long term, committed and HONEST relationship but I don’t see the need to marry to have that with someone.  I sure as hell don’t think I could ever be with someone as described in the aforementioned paragraph. 

My newest “dream” basically revolves around getting my kids successfully through school and then I plan on selling my house and taking that money and finding me a nice little house or cottage on a beach – somewhere.   Maybe that will change as my dreams have changed as I have grown older and I hope wiser.