Today is NOT the day . . .

So after a great weekend, I had one shitty Monday.  Really, everything that could go wrong went wrong.  Work was stressful and I feel like I am beating my head against the wall with certain things.  I come home at lunch to let my dogs out and of course they had made a horrible mess.  I go back to work and beat my head against the same freaking wall and stayed an hour late to get things done.  Then I head home.  The kids are fighting, Madison won’t eat the dinner I fix and again . . . I feel like I am beating my head against the wall.  Everything seems to be a complete fight today . . . This is the hardest part of being a single parent.  On days like today there is no one here to help take on some of the load.  I have to be the provider, launderer, the chef, the scheduler and when things go wrong I have to be the person to shell out the discipline and then the one to comfort them 5 minutes later . . . even when they are still pissed off at me.  I know they say God only gives you what you can handle but I seriously think God over estimates my abilities these days . . .