Going to the Chapel . . .

So, this past weekend my ex-husband of a little over nine months got re-married to his first wife. They have a child together and I hope for his sake, they can make things work out this time around. What I am really confused about is why, on God’s green earth, it bothers me that he has gotten remarried.


Now, I do not want him back – not even remotely. So this is why I am so confused about my “feelings” of his recent nuptials. Maybe, it is because I have a hard time believing he could move on so quickly . .. I mean he and I have been apart for 17 months now and I have not even gone on one date. Not even a met someone for coffee. But then again, it is my understanding that the first ex-wife and he began seeing each other pretty much the week after I left . . or at least spending A LOT of time together. . he prefers to not call it dating

Maybe, I have a difficult time believing that he ever even loved me . . . if he can just move on to another, or in this case, turn tail and run to the past. Or possibly, this is one of the most fundamental differences between men and women. Women need time to heal and men feel healing is more about replacement.

So, I am hoping my “healing” time will quicken and I will actually want to meet someone or start dating again. But until then, I think I will just continue to hang out with kiddos and my dogs . . . they are better listeners anyway . . . at least the dogs listen better.